Either way, all that fear set aside, I really do just wanna be done. I want to spend time with my little boy, give him the attention he needs. He came up to me the other day with his bottom lip poked out and said "mommy, can you please not work on the computer today and we can do soemthing fun together?". CRUSH. Broke my heart. I want to have more time with him...I'm ready to be able to do things with him and move around the house, hold him, cook for him, have picnics, run around being goofy together. I miss it.
I also want to see our little girls faces already. I can hardly stand it. I want to see how much they look alike, what stands out different in each of them, if they have the same color hair...or any hair at all. I want to see if their personalities are the same as they have been in the womb. I wanna know I'm REALLY having 3 babies and see the reality of it for myself!!
But mostly, my body is just tired. Crazy coming from a woman on bedrest, I know. But I'm tired of having to make everyone do everything for me while I lay there (although I bet a month into these babies I'll gladly want that back). I want to cook, bake, make treats for my party business, play with my kiddos, work out, be able to go out in the sun, drive around in my car, grocery shop, attend church. And I want to get more than 30 minutes of sleep at a time at night. It's so sad when this has all just become so normal for Kayson that he just automatically makes excuses for me or knows I can't do anything. I can't wait to not be hurting all the time or be all fragile or have Kayson waiting for me to take 5 minutes to get up the stairs...or anywhere in the house for that matter ha!
Ok ok so I know my hubby is going to read this and say good grief what a whiner!! But I gotta get it out that I'm ready, waiting and hoping my body is done soon. To be honest, I couldn't be more grateful or blessed for how great this pregnancy REALLY has gone. No, it HASN'T been easy...not even close. But my body has held up so well for what I expected. We're all convinced my body was made for carrying triplets because it doesn't seem on the outside to look any different than a regular pregnancy and I have been lucky enough to not get any stretchies yet....ha, so is my hubby. And really, the fact that we haven't had early pre term labor or any complications and the fact that the girls have been completely perfect with no problems and their weights have stayed SO close to each other...it's all a miracle. My pregnancy is high risk for dozens of reasons...and we've somehow veared past almost all of them. I don't know how we got this lucky but I'm SO grateful for it. Now as long as my body can get through the rest and the girls do really well in the NICU, we'll just be golden. Some quick FYI's
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Hey, I remember coming to visit you in the hospital from that appendix..
Hang in there. You have every right to gripe, everyone does, but I can also tell you realize what an amazing vessle your body is. Seriously it is housing THREE little lives... that is AMAZING!
Again, please call me if you need anything. I am also more than happy to come hang out next week, and bring my girls to entertain Kayson... let me know.
You are such a tropper. I can't imagine being in your shoes and being so completely uncomfortable all the time. I still can't believe you're still pregnant! WAY TO GO! I know you're done but you're doing an amazing job! When I was on bedrest with Jaxson Cayden came up with excuses for me to. I think it was his way of understanding for whatever reason mommy couldn't do what he wanted (and what I wanted to do for that matter). You're doing amazing!
Oh man you can gripe all you want sista!!! I can't even imagine what is like having three babies, one is hard enough on your body. That is awesome that your little bambinos are doing so fabulous. Almost there:)
I was just thinking about you today and wondering how you were doing. I am glad that all is going well, pregancy wise, but I am sorry that it's been so rough on you. You are doing great though and don't feel whiny, every pregnant person is entitled to it and with being pregnant with triplets I think you are entitled to it 3 times as much :) I hope the next two weeks go by quickly for you and that all will be well with you and the babies. FYI personally I have now had 2 c-sections and I don't feel that they are really as terrible as some people fear, I have recovered really quickly from mine and I hope that you have the same experience and that it is not too traumatic for you.
LOL I love that picture of the frog! It cracks me up! You are entitled to a gripe sessions!! Being pregnant is really hard and you are a bit more pregnant then most so you def are okay!
You are so amazing and we are so happy that you have made it this far! Keep on cookin those little girls! Holy cow... 11 lbs!! I am sorry. I cannot even imagine! But you look amazing and don't look like you are carrying 11 lbs in baby!! You are so so so tiny!!
Keep us updated! So excited for you!
You know I would be griping too, that would be hard to have to have help with so much of what you would normally do. You are a trooper. I would love to plan a play date for our boys, I could do some activities with them, and if your up for it we could even do it at your house so you could feel a part of it. Let me know.
I can't believe you're feeling badly about your blog!! You're making 3 babies, woman!!
Forget the blog. Have fun with your little man and relax!
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